My favorite book of the Bible is the Psalms.
In the Psalms of Lament, I love how King David expresses his anger at God for allowing difficult circumstances to come into his life. For questioning why God had not immediately intervened the way that David wanted.
I can relate to David’s anger and doubt. There are times I want to shout at God and ask why he allows evil to exist. Why does He allow me to struggle with a particular sin?
In those seasons of doubt, I am grateful to be at a church where I can be authentic in my faith journey.
I have been in places where honest questions were discouraged. I didn’t stay there very long.
I am reminded that despite all his doubt, anger and sin, David was a man after God’s own heart.
I find myself modeling David’s laments to God.
I complain. I cry out to God to intervene. I candidly express my anger and my doubt.
Then, like David, I recall how gracious God has been to me. I remind myself of His unfailing love toward me.
I ask His forgiveness for my temporary doubt and anger and he restores me to a right relationship with Him.
I discover again that an examined faith can withstand doubt and adversity.